Blogger of Repute

Daily Prompt: Do you have a reputation? What is it, and where did it come from? Is it accurate? What do you think about it?

I have come to believe my reputation is simply a “hard working nice guy”.  I can’t say I’m a 20-hours-a-day-day-in-day-out hard worker trying to solve world peace, but I feel I certainly put in a lot of hours each day doing something, whether it’s my day job helping students, working on a project, spending time with daughter and developing my relationship with her, reading/watching a book/blog/youtube clip and developing my skills (related to one of my many interests), trying to keep up with relationship with people, and testing/trying new techniques to be the most efficient person I can and “please” as many as I can.  Funny enough, that “please” part tends to get me in trouble.  It’s also why a “nice guy” isn’t always a good thing.  If you asked a bunch of people what they think of me, I’m confident the large majority would either “like” me or be “indifferent” towards me.  It’s rare that people “dislike” or downright “hate” me (well, maybe for short moments, but never a long time).  While I often pride myself in being the guy that people nobody hates (and often comes to for help), I have come to the realization that I often neglect my own emotions and feelings to be in this position with people, that I often value and worry about the feelings of other people more than my own.  The problem is internalizing any negative emotions creates stress to me and my body.  The strangest part is I’ve been doing for so long that I hardly notice when I do this anymore.  I’m not suggesting that I should start being mean to people, but I’m starting to realize that I need to start listening to myself more, and not just agree to everything for the sake of pleasing someone.  Ironically, it’s one of the areas that I should probably work a little “harder” on…